First Glance (grateful)

hadlee's birth

I wish I had all the time in the world to post… but no such luck over here. Try as I might but there is never enough time. Even though I don’t post as often as i’d like I am always talking to you in my head, telling you all about the amazing things I did today or sometimes about the craziness of life or sometimes the craziness of being a mom or the next cool thing I want to tell you about or a new recipe I tried. But tonight I am so tired so you’ll have to settle for a grateful post. This is one of my favorite pictures, one of my dearest friends Jessica is an amazing photographer and she captured some of the most tender moments after we had Hadlee. This picture has become one of my all time favorites. This was one of the first glances that Joe and I had of our sweet Hadlee Jo right after she was born. The pure joy and love we feel for her and our other 7 children is un-matchable. Sometimes I wonder and even ask myself if I measure up, or if I’m a good enough mom. I’ve been reminded several times from someone way bigger than myself that I Love my children fiercely, more than anyone on this earth, and while I am not a prefect mother I have a perfect love for each of them. I was singing a song in church a few weeks back and my 6 year old was sitting on my lap, she and I shared a very sweet tender moment together and at that time I had had the question in my heart am I a good enough mom? It was during the song that I was able to feel the most amazing spirit and it reminded me that I am doing my best and that, that’s all I can do and that Heavenly Father will make up the difference when there is areas I lack in. It was at that moment that I realized that even though at times I feel inadequate I have to remind myself I am adequate, I am more than adequate and there isn’t a better mom for my kids. So my words to you tonight is you are adequate, you are more than adequate, you are down right amazing, you are doing way better than you think you are and don’t tell yourself otherwise, when you need a reminder come read this post as a reminder that you are amazing at whatever you do/are doing, don’t sell yourself short or try and talk yourself out of it because you ARE amazing, say that to yourself a few times, as many times as it takes to make you believe it.

And so tonight I am so grateful for all the little things in my life, I am grateful that I am adequate and that so often I am doing better than I think I am and that there is someone there for me to make up the difference after I do my best. I am so grateful for every day, each one is an amazing gift and I am grateful for each and every one of those days that I get to spend them with the people I love, working, playing, doing, watching, growing, experiencing, whatever it is I am so grateful I get today. When one of our children was in the hospital for an extended period of time I remember for being grateful down to the moment and every single day that I got to spend with her was precious because I didn’t know how many more I would get. Thankfully she got better and so I still get to spend each day with her but it has reminded me to Make each and every day GREAT. So make today GREAT, be very GRATEFUL and remember you are PRETTY DARN AMAZING.